when does the pain go away?

I don’t know just where I’m going
And tomorrow is a little overwhelming
And the air is cold and I’m not the same anymore.

I’ve been running in your direction for too long now,
Lost my own reflection and I can’t look down
If you’re not there to catch me when I fall.

If this is the moment I stand here on my own,
If this is my right of passage that somehow leads me home,
I might be afraid but it’s my turn to be brave.

All along, all I ever wanted was to be the light
When your life was daunting but I can’t see mine,
When I feel as though you’re pushing me away.

Well who’s to blame? Are we making the right choices?
‘Cause we can’t be sure, if we’re hearing our own voices,
As we close the door, even though we are so desperate to stay.

If this is the moment I stand here on my own,
If this is my right of passage that somehow leads me home,
I might be afraid but it’s my turn to be brave.
If this is the last chance before we say goodbye,
At least it’s the first day of the rest of my life,
I can’t be afraid ’cause it’s my turn to be brave.

And I might still cry,
And I might still bleed,
These thorns in my side,
This heart on my sleeve.
And lightening my strike this ground at my feet,
And I might still crash,
But I still believe…

This is the moment I stand here all alone,
With everything I have inside, everything I own,
I might be afraid but it’s my turn to be brave.
If this is the last time before we say goodbye,
At least it’s the first day of the rest of my life,
I can’t be afraid it’s my turn to be brave.

No I’m not seasick, yes I’ve always been green, no I didn’t eat grass as a child

I’m turning into Elphaba! My hands are permanently green!

Haha i’m just kidding. But my hands are green. It’s from Erica’s facepaint, for the Wicked Witch of the West in Oz (www.uhltheater.com for tickets:-]). I literally have a page and a half of script to paint her whole face, neck, ears, and hands green. what a joy what a joy. and for tonights rehearsal i had nothing to paint her face with except for my hands, so there it is folks, my green hands. I absolutely love it though. It’s a new look for me:-) In my bio i’m writing “and a special thank you to Indina Menzel for being my inspiration and idol throughout this beautifully tragic chaos.”  anybody spot the Wicked line?

Well, i hope people come see the show. it’s a little bit um…. interesting…. (coughdannycough) but besides a few minor (coughdannycough) incidents (coughtotocough) we’ll be okay.